#aka I didn't move out the flippin' house as soon as I could - since flat broke I couldn't had built the career I'm building right now i.e.

[lunasilvis]

The masculine urge to be strong, consistent and vigorous (physically, mentally, emotionally) and provide (financially, basic needs, shelter, love) as an adult, who grew up in a wrecked and abusive home which then slashed gnarly tears in my spirit (and the life-long desire to have these gaps softened by real love)